Blurbal Perspective

Today marks 1 month clean and sober for me! As I enter my fourth week of treatment, I couldn't be more prouder of all the work I have put in to my treatment and recovery. Sure, I do have the assistance of medication, but we all know that medication doesn't do jack without you being completely on board with your recovery. This weekend was a rough weekend for me. Friday and Saturday, I did experience cravings for alcohol (I did NOT drink). I was stressed out because I was running low on my bipolar medication, and I was stressing because I was in a lot of pain from my spinal condition. I decided Friday through Saturday night that I would just keep my activities stress-free. I ended up having a mental health day and kept myself calm. Boy, it was hard, but it was surprisingly effective. Sunday, as you can tell, I was hard at work with my blogging. I spent extra time in meditation, which helped slow down my thoughts and decrease my stress. It was a good day. That is one thing I wa...

Good day, readers! I have decided to start a series about receiving help for severe depression and alcohol dependency. As most of you know, I have been suffering from a painful spinal condition for nearly 3 years now. Since the pain started in 2013, I have noticed my mental state decline. This year, however, things have taken a turn for the worse. With my spine continuing to deteriorate, I have become more depressed. My neurosurgeon told me that I need to stop working until we find out what the problem is and fix it. In my personal life, my mental decline had taken its toll on my long-term relationship with the 'love of my life.' I decided to move back home to see if the distance may help both of us. Unfortunately, it hasn't. I discussed the two of us taking a break from one another and he agreed. We plan on getting together sometime next month so we can see where to go from there. While the separation was my idea, I haven't been taking it well. A few weeks ago, I cont...